Please....

I still don get it...
please...

Make a clear would u?
do I mean anything?
anything to u?
is dat a promise?
can it be taken as a promise?
or wat?
will it be true?
or fake?
juz joke?

How about dat day's talk?
talking so much to the future...
will wait ?
is dat a promise too?
can it be?
will it be?
3 and 1/2 year?
can u?

I 'll promise i can if i want...
but i don't dare to make a promise to myself too early...
lack of security sense...
I afraid there will be countless scar attached on me then...

You gave me too many wonderful memories...
You brought me the happiness i ever had before...
You made me felt i wanted to be with you...

When i'm on phone with you,
I can just be myself;
I can smile without reason;
I can laugh as i want;
I can feel the happiness in the laughing,

I FEEL I am I when I'm connected with you.
We can talk about anything,can we?
Yes we can...

But likely there's still lot of things i don't know well about you...
Ain't I?
The answer shall be yes , right?

你最近还好吗？

你最近还好吗？你过得怎样了？没有勇气说出口，只敢静静的祝福。我还是忘不了我们的快乐时光，依然思念着你们。默默的看着你们远去。。。我不知道该怎样。。。？难道你真的觉得我放得下吗？难道真的感觉不到吗？
一直以为没有你们我还是会过得很好。但事实并非如此，少了你们，我的生活变得不完整了。。。还是不能适应少了你们的生活。。。装作现在过的很好，一点也不在乎你们似的。。。
心碎了。。。我只是很想念你们。。。真的不知道要怎样。。。
[今天早上，她来了后我不是因为讨厌她而要走掉的，只是害怕场面尴尬。。。可能你们有话要说呢。。。不，应该是一定吧。如果有我在，会碍到你们聊话吧。。。所以我还是决定先走了。。。其实我很想留下来的。。。。真的。。。。。。]
在我心里，你们永远都是我好朋友。。。。对你们的那种感觉是多么特别的。。。别人很难取代吧。。。而我也不想。。。每一次和你们在一起，是多么的开心。。。我们能一起幻想到很远很远的。。。。在那儿说废废的东西。。。然后在那边嘻嘻哈哈的。。。现在，我只能想象回罢了。。。。你们是我的依靠。。。伤心的时候都是有你们的安慰。。。快乐的时候有你们一起分享。。。什么东西我们都能讲的。。。。一有机会，我们就会聊天了。。。要是时间能够倒流那该有多好啊。。。。。

My Dearest Friends

For someone special to me:

I missed u ,
girls,
always.

I missed the time we together,
I missed ur smile,
I missed ur voice,
I missed ur laugh.

I missed,
the time we been through together;
the events that happened among us;
the things we did together.

We used to be,
in the same tuition class ;
gossiping about others;
laughing together.

Since we first met,
we been friend for almost 3 years,
i can still clearly remember
how we met,where,
and why will we becomes friends.

Although,
it's not very long,
but i already take u as my very dear friend,
deep inside my heart,
unconsciously ,
u served a place in it,
really.

Once,
we felt in love with a same guy;
we cried for him,remember?
I would laugh at myself when i think of it.

I always thought,
our friendship was very strong enough,
no matter wat is it,
how tough is it,
there are no such thing that can influence our friendship.

But,
who knows?
I don't know.
It juz unpredictable,
Everything juz happened so sudden,
I don't know wat to do,
how come our friendship became like this?
I always wanted to say,
'I am Sorry,I don't mean that'.
from my deep heart.

But,
I don't know when to say,
where to say,
how to say.
If saying 'I am Sorry' ,
could get the things back to the past,
i would say so,
no matter how many times,
Really.
I really miss u girls.
Really really very.

Nevertheless,
nowadays I have my own-new-good friends,
they are good,nice.
We don't have communicating problems.
But,
however,
they could never replace u in my heart.
Being with them is fun,enjoyable.

But it is incomparable with being with u girls.
The feelings are not the same,
and it won't be the same.
Being with u girls is more enjoyable.

As we could
gossiping about others,
expressing all our feelings emotionally,
we won't need to care how each of us will think about us,
because we knew ourselves well,
as all of us do so.


Once in a while,i do make fun of u and all but i really hope u do not take it to heart.
As these laughters and insults are the roots and the solid base to the very foundation of our friendship.Though we may not talk to each other very often,i do believe,that our bonds shall not shatter,and shall prove the resilient through the test of the time.


Now we are friends again,but i feel the quality of the friendship is not the same.
Someone once compared friendship to a Chinese vase.
Once broken,
the vase may be mended,
but it will never look the same.
But I am still glad that our friendship mended slowly even if hesitatingly.





#p/s:
I know my english is not good enough,so please bear along and accept my misusage of grammatical
English,as I'm merely a learner.Thank you.